It has been a minute since I blogged. I have thought about what I would say but also, I learned as I have had this blog for years, that I write better when I am inspired. I am proud of myself though because I am starting to journal again. A couple years ago, I was in a dark place and challenged myself to write everyday, even when I had two sentences. It still counted!
Writing is one of my favorite things to do.
Anyways, major announcement: I am going to major in psychology!
As I sat down and really thought about this, multimedia journalism was my net I fell into. It just seemed... convenient for me. I loved writing, so bam that seemed perfect! I was ready for it..... or so I thought I was. Whenever I would say I am going to major in multimedia, it felt like a path that I was iffy about. I love writing but do I want to do that for a living? I love writing because I can write what I want to and don't have guidelines of what I have to write about. Of course, I am still writing for the O'Colly because I love the atmosphere and we can volunteer for stories and basically have our own free ground of ideas.
With a little push, I decided that I am changing my major. When I officially decided that I am majoring in psychology, it was a indescribable feeling. I felt like I changed my whole future and am going on the right path in life. I remember calling my best friend Haley because I knew she'd get what I felt. We both agreed that it felt like we found the golden way God set out for us to do. I am excited, nervous, and ready to do this.
I can do hard things.
I finished reading Untamed by Glennon Doyle and it felt like warm coffee to the soul. I couldn't read it all in one sitting though because I had to close it and take in the words I just read. It really got to my feelings and opened my brain even more. I loved it. I really suggest it! By the way, it is a memoir if you were wondering.
In the book, Doyle constantly mentions how you should listen to what your body tells you and that you can do hard things. Suffering is a part of life and makes you a stronger person after.
I remember learning how to play piano, I sat and dwell on the fact I will never be good at playing it. But I still suffered through the doubts and the relief I got and felt whenever I would play something right or get to play a song with my piano teacher afterwards, it was the reason I never gave up on those piano keys.
I can do hard things.
I am retaking a math course in the fall and I am determined to pass it this time. I know I am going to end up crying and questioning "why do I need to know the number of tickets sold at an imaginary event?" to myself then feel the need to give up...... but I won't.
I made it through my piano doubts. I can make it through math. I have made it through a lot of things... I can't let myself trip up on the small things.
I find myself feeling helpless in this world a lot with everything that goes on. I feel small but I actually know that even the small things can lead to a bigger impact. I will continue trying my best to help the best I can and however I can. I am one person but I know I can help the world and people. I am majoring in psychology because I love the human mind and behavior. I want to help people.
This is a mess of a blog post but I hope you all enjoyed it and take at least one thing with you when you click off of here.
Thank you for reading as always,
Zayniator
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