I seem to get nervous when I talk to people I'm not close to. Whenever someone tries to make a conversation with me I always find myself panicking slightly inside asking myself what should I say after this? Social Anxiety.
At school, I mostly tend to myself and my best friends. I'm not outgoing. I can't just walk up to somebody and create a conversation. I wish I could. I wish I was one of those people that could talk to anyone and not feel a slight bit nervous.
Last year I took a seat at a lunch table to wait for my two best friends in the lunch line. While they were in the lunch line, I was eating my food in peace until these three people came and sat at my table. They acknowledged my existence for a second before carrying on their conversation.
My hands were earthquakes under my lunch tray that's how nervous I was. They literally weren't even speaking to me and I was internally going into panic mode. Way to go me...
Today as I write this on Wednesday, I found out today that I was chosen for student of the month for my sophomore class which was TOTALLY unexpected. When I heard my name on the announcements for this I seriously said "What!" out loud.
Highlight of my day right there.
Anyways, I know I feel so out of place at school a lot of the time and I tend to stay in my own bubble but it feels good to know that I get acknowledged.
Also, please be kind to everyone. No matter who they are or if it's even their job; say thank you. Last week this substitute was passing out worksheets for us to do and I told her a simple thank you.
Her face lit up and she told me I was the only one who had told her that all day. It made me feel good.
And that's all for this week's blog.
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Love always,
Zayne
You are just incredible Zayne. You amaze me more & more every single day. I love you so much. Dad
ReplyDeleteLove hearing your thoughts and how you always come back to thinking of others and being kind. Even when you are hurting or anxious. If we all lived by the Golden Rule like you do this world would be a different and vastly better place. "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you". Very simple. We all can learn from you. Love you Zayne.
ReplyDeleteZayne Im the type that talks way tooooo much, and I get just as nervous!! I wish I could just be quite!! lol!!! We all battle the same things just in different ways! I love you girl!!
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