Live Your Life

Hello my lovelies,

As I am typing this, my dog is snoring and curled up into a ball beside me with music playing and my person on the phone. It has been a moment since I have taken a breather to let you all know my thoughts and feelings (because for some reason,,, people actually love my blog?).

I saw the movie Five Feet Apart and while I was watching the movie, I got into a train of thought because my brain never shuts down just to focus on one thing. Even when I have been reading lately, it has been hard to keep on reading and not get distracted by my surroundings.

I read a book recently though that I could not put down and it felt relieving to say that and accomplishing to finish it in such a short time. If you want a book recommendation: Dry by Neal Shusterman. 

Anyways, it is crazy the thought process of life. We wake up everyday and our hearts beat and we breathe to function. The process begins when you enter the crazy place named Earth and you take your first breath out of the womb and wow, you are now added to the population.

You wake up everyday from this thing called sleep and you go through the day doing what you do, never knowing if it will be your last. We have brains and feelings and struggles and just... in case you needed to hear it: you're never alone.

I hope you let your people that are special to you know how much they mean to you. It'll probably mean a lot to them to hear that and maybe it will make you feel good too. I hope so.

This blog was a mess but I hope you enjoyed it anyways. I appreciate you for reading my blog as always.

Love always,

Zayniator

What I Am Listening To: Not Warriors by Waterparks

Recovery (deep thinking)

it’s weird.

you think you’re going to be have heartache forever with some things.

you can have the rush of heaviness through your chest as if it’s not leaving anytime soon, but you find fresh air at the end.

 you can turn around and look at the trails without dwelling yourself over.

          that’s when you know you’re free. 

Empathy (Poetry Corner)

Empathy is a superpower I wish I didn’t have. 

My mind looks at someone’s feelings and hard times and just grabs. 

It doesn’t matter if you’re a stranger or a friend, when you’re in trouble, I’m falling in your shoes to 

imagine how you feel. 

I wish this feeling wasn’t real. 

The overwhelming desire to help cure everything that I can’t strengthens itself everyday. 

How I wish for everyone’s pain to go away so we could make it another day. 

But I’m no superhero and not all can be curable. 



My Birthday Luck

Hey my lovelies,

I wanted to post a blog but did not know exactly what I should post besides more of my poetry (which you can scroll to find) except I missed typing my thoughts and latest updates on my life like I am such an interesting person.

My birthday is Monday and I have had this theory of my birthday having bad luck because of having bad things happen to me. My best best friend reminded me once that there is not a certain day you have luck on but instead, look at the all the good things that have happened on that day and they're right.

But... a lot of bad things have happened on my birthday in many past years.

Last year was an exception.

Now you may be wondering: what happened on my birthday to make me feel this way?

To list off:
- I fell out of bed on my tenth birthday and cut my head open

- I forgot what birthday but my mom gave me these cleansing wipes and I wiped my face to wake up and be red like a cherry
- had a blizzard on my birthday (okay this isn't fully bad luck because I love snow but...)

On the bright side, I am blessed with my family and friends to celebrate my existence with and eat good cake with. It is the second holiday I do not feel bad when people spend money on me... all the other times, yeah, I feel bad.

I hope your next birthday, no matter how old you are, is as great as you are!

Love always,

Zayniator

Listening to: Don't Stop Me Now by Queen

Embracing Myself

Hey my lovelies, 

Yesterday was Valentine's Day aka my favorite holiday because I am weird and love all the love shown on that day. That day is not just for couples but also can be towards love of friends, family, and even yourself. 

I have a hard time embracing my unique qualities about myself because I feel like because I am like this then there isn't going to be a reason to like me. I am a shy and awkward and quiet person (unless you are my best friends or family) and I worry my looks intimidate people. 

I don't feel comfortable in my own skin but I guess that is something to work on, huh? 

I hope you all find something you love about yourself because you deserve it! 

Love always,

Zayniator 

Listening to: I'll Follow You Into The Dark by Death Cab For Cutie

Back From The Dead (Poetry Corner)

Her hands held onto the edges of wet soil that surrounded the burial of her body in the moment of disappearance.


Her skin was covered in dirt and dressed to camouflage into the mud around her.

Her throat was filled up with dirt and dry from how quiet she’s been.
But her eyes.
Her eyes held water and fire rolled into one.
She lifted herself slowly but surely off the ground to see everything around her wasn’t what she thought it was.
No dark clouds but only sunny skies with chance of rain somedays.
There weren’t monsters waiting for her but rather a garden full of fresh air for her to fall into.
She thought it was over and everything was going to be burned...


but in fact, it’s even more beautiful after the storm.

- Z.H

5 Reasons To Read A Book

Hey lovelies,

If you don't know, I love reading so much that my bookshelf has two rows of books on one shelf because I can't fit all my books I have on my shelves! It hurts my want of having a neat looking shelf to see all my books at once.

BUT WHY SHOULD YOU CARE? Because books are awesome.... that is why.

I am going to tell you five reasons you should pick up a book and change your life.

1. Reading takes you to another world

This can be literally fantasy in another world or just a different town lifestyle. It is a trip out of your house that you don't have to actually leave to go on.

2. Why not?

3. Books are in every genre just like TV shows so you can base your TV show likes onto books to find to read

4. Writing has a lot of ranges along to it and the vocabulary used differs as well.

Sometimes, I read books that have words that I never heard of and I get excited because I am weird and love learning new words.

5. BECAUSE IT IS FUN.

You may be a picky reader (get it? Like picky eater but reader... I am not funny.) and might not like the first few books you pick up BUT check out other genres too :)

Also, there are such thing as AUDIO BOOKS where you can listen to a book instead of reading the words yourself. Find your preference and read.

Love always,

Zayniator