Wonder

Hello my lovelies,

Today is a special day for me as a writer. Today is officially one year of blogging for me and I honestly can’t feel so satisfied with this as I do now. I looked back at my very first blogpost on here and... I might’ve cringed a bit inside. It felt like one of those “On This Day” throwback posts you get on Facebook and you question yourself on how could you be so awkward?

But as far as I can tell, I’m still that awkward, yet dorky, writer that I am but my grammar has improved as it should. Also that my main reason for this blog besides expressing my feelings is still true: wanting to reach out and help people to make sure they’re not alone.

With this blog, I have all my thoughts and getting feedback and support for this blog has meant so much to me. I hope reading my blog posts has affected you in some way anytime in this blog’s existence.

(If you really want a challenge on seeing how much my writing has changed (and how outgoing I was in my writing (??)), there’s a old blogspot of my fourth grade self floating somewhere on the Internet. Good luck finding that.

Now I’m going onto another topic that I meant to blog about last week but I’m a mess and think this is important.

Last week I saw the movie Wonder and afterwards left me in a deep thought (as everything does) and I could relate to some parts of the movie. I used to not like how my lips were when I was little and how I talk but I got past that. I still look at myself in the mirror for long moments st a time and smile at myself just to see my crooked smile and honestly, I wouldn’t trade that.

Also, it is sad to know there are those mean people in the world who take pride by hurting others. I recall being called many things such as “stupid” and “too ugly to have friends” but I know that these aren’t true.

Especially my friends. My friends are the most supportive and amazing people that I’m so thankful to have in my life with their music tastes, how they can relate to things I say, and laugh at my stupid jokes. But they also help boost my confidence.

(My family really rocks too.)

For example, one of the most precious people I cherish I quote: “WOW YOU’RE SO ADORABLE.” Do you feel that? My self esteem has RISEN.

 I know I say this a lot but don’t judge a book by its cover.

Today is the first day of December and I have a feeling it’ll be a great month. There’s so many birthdays this month for amazing and magnetic people in my life so I’ll enjoy that along with the holidays with family.

Thank you for reading my blog for a year’s worth.

Love always,

Zayniator

Book Convention & Halloween

Hey my lovelies, it is Zayniator with a new blog post! It is now November and if you have me on social media you probably noticed that I went to a teen book convention in my own state of Oklahoma the past weekend.

I can't express how much I loved it. With how much I love writing and plan on writing my own book one day, it was great meeting and hearing what all these authors had to say about their writing experiences.

Plus, I got new books!

Also, Monday was Halloween andddddddddddddddd I was someone from the 20's with my best friend Kaylee (who is more awesome than Haley).

 Every year for Halloween, I always look back on my past costumes and reflect on them. I have to say the most scary hideous costume was the year I was a vampire with a blue wig. Somehow, I ended up on the paper for that? I don't understand?

My favorite is when I was a pink lady from Grease. I love that movie so much.

I hope you all have a great November!

Love always,

Zayniator

Maggie Stiefvater 

My best friend Kaylee and I

This is me trying to seem aesthetic but failing. 

The Thoughts of A Now Seven Year Old

Hello my loves, today is a very special day for my little sister, Eden, who is turning seven. To be honest, I can't believe it. It seems like yesterday when I found out that I was going to be a big sister.

I was an only child for ten years and sometimes I miss it but this is not the reason why I am typing this right now.

What I wish for my sister and upon everyone is that everyone at one point is happy with their lives. I always know that there will be ups and downs in life but what matters most is that we seek the positive things in the end; which there will be.

So I am going to give you a very special interview with my sister:

(Z= me E= Eden)

Z: What is your favorite song?

E: Look What You Made Do by Taylor Swift 

Z: What is your dream birthday party?

E: at a haunted house (??)

Z: What is your favorite thing about your birthday? 

E: presents 

Z: What is the earliest thing you can remember?

E: when I was a baby. 

Z: How do you describe yourself and how do you describe me?

E: I'm nice and love people and you (Zayne aka me) listen to lots of music. 

Z: What could you say to help people? 

E: Can I help you? 

And finally....

Z: Tell me a joke

E: knock knock 
Z: who's there?
E: Dishes 
Z: Dishes who? 
E: gotta wash the dishes. 

            That is all folks. 


Thank you for always reading and keeping up with my blogs. ❤️

Love always,

Zayniator 

In Case You Need A Laugh (Or a Smile)

Hello my lovelies, it is great to see you all back again and ready to read my posts. It forever means a lot. Also, you may not notice but I changed some of my display on my blog so I hope it looks pretty to you as it does to me.

This week's blog post I thought over and decided that I am going to share with you five stories that are completely embarrassing but funny to look back on. I hope at least one of these makes you laugh or smile.

1. 911, Sorry. 

Does anyone remember when blackberry phones were popular and it had this one game where you could hit the blocks with the balls and the paddle? No idea what I am talking about? Well oops.

Anyways, I always got my mom's phone to play this game and on Blackberries they lock too just like iPhones. 

We were in a doctor's office and my mom was back inside while I was sitting with my Nana. My mom left her purse with us and I got my mom's phone out to play that game. I thought I knew how to unlock the phone but I totally didn't. 

The phone started dialing and the person on the phone said hello then I took the phone in my hands and mentally started freaking out. I kept pressing the end button but it wouldn't hang up. Finally, I looked to my nana and gave her the phone because I had no idea what to do then. 

So that was the time I accidentally called 911. 

 2.  What Happens When You Watch Too Much Spongebob

Every child that has ever watched Spongebob has to remember the theme song with the pirate. That is like over half the reasoning to watch that show in the first place. 

One day, my teacher in first grade was saying for me to do something and normally, a child would say okay then just leave it at that. 

Not this girl.

I saluted to my teacher and said "Aye eye captain!" just like the pirate in Spongebob. Imagine this little girl in first grade saluting and saying that with the biggest grin and black glasses. 

This is just a throwback picture from first grade to help your imagery.

Needless to say, I got sent to my mom's classroom. 

End of Story Time. 

I hope you smiled or even laughed at these two stories. As I type these, I wish my mood would lighten up. 

How do you make yourself feel happy? 

Love always,

Zayniator

Capable Of Anything

   "Anyone from anywhere can do anything."- Tyler Joseph. 

Hello my lovelies, I hope you all are doing well.

As I type this, my heart is so happy for Darci Lynne for winning America's Got Talent. She's so talented and deserved it so much. I think this shows that anything can happen if you work hard enough and wish with all your heart on it.

I feel like I say this a lot but life can be so hard sometimes. It's full of ups and downs, challenges and hard times but there is always hope if you can find it. There is no doubt in my mind that every one of us has felt hopeless and powerless because honestly, who hasn't?

I have a huge dream and goal in life to become a writer and publish my own books, wether it's a book of poetry or a fictional story. But again, I know you can't just wish upon a star and make it happen. You got to put work into it.

I practice my writing everyday.

I have 124 notes in my phone and over half is poetry while I even write some in books.

I just wish upon you that everything in your desires comes to you and life gets better if it's not the best at the moment.

Also, I can't believe that October is around the corner. I can't wait for what the future holds.

I feel like I need a story for this blog post so are you ready?

I think it was 2012, I made a book. When I say I made a book, I mean I got a stack of papers and stapled them together and wrote the copyright icon and the year of 2012.

 I wrote the story based on these stickers I had in a coloring book that I never used. Every page of it had a sticker and I think the title of it is "The Mystery Of The Missing Birthday Cake".  Trust me when I say it's about more than a missing birthday cake. It had some soap opera material in it that makes me question myself??

But as far back as I remember, I've always loved writing.

The basic message of everything is that you're able to do anything you want to do in life.

(Except go to the moon, sadly.)

Once again, thank you everyone for reading my blog. It means so much to me.

Love always,

Zayniator

P.S have a nice throwback picture of me for Thursday. 

Peace, Love & Positivity

Hello again my lovelies,

Today's thoughts center around trying to think positive which I feel like a lot of us need to think more on the bright side. I feel like we all need to take a breath sometimes-

Give me a favor, okay?

Close your eyes and think of three things that make you happy; when you got those three things then read on.

I am challenging you now.

I dare you to go a whole day- even if it's an hour, go without complaining or seeing through the negative glasses that are built in our eyesight.

I understand that we have our hard times in life but remember: just a bad day, not a bad life.

Today I was negative. We voted for class officers of the junior class and of course, I started telling myself that barely anyone voted me and that I wasn't going to get it. Then a little later on, I started to see the bright side.

I applied to be in student council. I have my blog which is all me. 

I don't know if I mentioned this before you guys but one of my self goals I've always had is to make a difference. Even if I make someone day, that will mean so much to me. So give me a favor and be kind to everyone. Always.

If you feel like you can't talk to anyone about your feelings or that no one cares, I care. If you need to rant about your feelings or anything at all, this place is a judgment free zone. You can post anonymously in the comments about your issues or if you have any of my social medias then you can always message me there, too.

Social media shouldn't just be all negative things. When I get on Facebook, I don't like seeing people complain about anything. We all complain, I get that but it's better to be positive than be negative.

It's almost contagious. When someone is negative or rude, I feel like those horrible vibes spread a bit towards others and I don't want to see others down because of social media.

So give me another favor, okay? Spread love online AND offline. Go comment on people's photos and posts congratulations them and make them feel good of themselves. Compliment someone's outfit. Open the door for people. Leave tips.

In case you haven't heard this, I'm glad you're here today and you are special. You are unique and irreplaceable so you should hold yourself up like the masterpiece you are and know that you are capable of anything.

Peace, love & positivity.

                                                                  ! Song Suggestions! 

  Emmylou by Vance Joy 

1-800-273-8255 by Logic

Guns For Hands by twenty one pilots 

Long Live by Taylor Swift 

She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5

Love always,


Zayniator

Updating Life

Today was my first day as a junior and honestly I feel like I'm more confident this year already than I was at the start of my sophomore year. Also, I've made myself a goal to actually socialize more this year. I don't know if this would shock you my fellow readers but I tend to keep to muself a lot more instead of being a social butterfly.

Unless it comes to this blog thennnnnnn I am pretty good with getting out of my shell. I'm terribly sorry for not updating this much this past summer but once I get on schedule once more along with school, I feel like I'll be able to write like I used to and update you all more.

I've had drafts saved in this blog to share with you all but I've never got to the point of where I could post those in confidence because it felt like I was missing something. This summer had great memories but I still had my mood drops and doubt they'll go away anytime soon.

Plus, I felt like today would be a good day to post and I didn't want let another week pass by with no blog posting. So today is your lucky day, my readers.

Today's blog post has no real message but in case you need to hear: I'm happy you've made it this far, my friend. I know there's hard times in life but you have made it to today.

I'm proud of you.

Until next time, thank you for sticking around.

Love always,

Zayniator.