Something important is about to happen.
I’m going to graduate.
As I’m typing this, it’s six in the morning and it’s Sunday (Happy Mother’s Day, mom.). A week until I graduate.
I’ve been going through a Beyoncé music phase and I landed upon this song called I Was Here. I couldn’t finish listening to it the first time I heard it because it hit me so hard. It describes how I feel ultimately about leaving my mark on this world. I’m leaving the town I grew up in. The people I’ve went to school with and grown with are graduating. My mom won’t be in the same house as me. I’ll miss that. I’ll miss my sister annoying me with love everyday.
I’m graduating.
It’s indescribable. When I was younger, I thought I wouldn’t get here. I thought I wouldn’t get to be this old and to say I’m graduating. I have so much in my head I want to say but I can’t put into words but I’m going to try.
There are people from my school and my life so far that have made a imprint in my mind and I doubt some of them even know. The small acts of kindness matter. You never know how much your actions can affect someone, even a stranger.
I know I made a mark in some people’s lives and I can’t wait to continue trying my best to help people. I can’t wait to struggle (what?) and live to learn because that’s life. I may get annoyed and frustrated with life like I have already at some points but it’ll be worth it in the long run.
I’m not going to sit by and watch my life pass before my eyes. It’s been a journey of a life and I know I’m only 19. I have so so much more in my life to experience but I have learned. I’m still trying to understand who I am as a person but I know my goals for myself in life. I pressure myself to perfect things and down myself on not being able to do some things but at least I don’t want to fail.
Life is hard but I will make the best of it.
I’m so grateful for all the memories I’ve made in school and the friends I’ve had and the teachers that will always have a place in my heart. I’m graduating.
I hope when I leave, people still wear purple for Moebius Awareness Day not just for me but everyone in the Moebius community. I hope in the future when I look back on this, I’m proud of myself. I hope I make my family even more proud of me. I hope my sister succeeds with whatever she plans on doing. I hope I remember to surround myself with people who make me feel good.
I heard from a lot from teachers that writing down things help you remember more. Does typing count?
I will make a difference.
I’m going to make an impact.
I love my family and my friends. I want to thank the people who believe in me and see my potential even when I don’t. I thank God for giving me this life and I don’t take it for granted.
As always, thank you for reading my blog.
Love always,
Zayniator
Listening to: I Was Here by Beyoncé
Please listen to it or look up the lyrics.
