One Step At A Time

Hi my lovelies,

I got into my dream college: Oklahoma State University! I put off my application for so long because I felt as if I was at a brick wall of anxiety that I can't get through. I cried so many times at night over the thought of going to college and failing to not get in. It was a scary state of mind and I do not wish that on anybody.

I thought that if I possibly made a three step goal accomplishing list that it would maybe help for future times and the light popped on in my head of why not sharing with you all?

Step one: Set A Goal 

I know that we all sometimes tend to go with the flow in our lives and to kinda know where you are going, but wouldn't be easier setting up a goal to do? Your goals don't have to be big like becoming the next popular writer. Your goals can be short term as well. I find doing long term goals more pressuring so I break it down even more to the milestones.

For example: I am going to post a blog this week.


Step two: Build Your Ladder 

Your goal might need some encouragement or mini steps to get the inspiration to actually accomplish it. I don't blog sometimes because I don't have the inspiration to write. I don't want to put out something that has no heart or thought in it, you know?

Everything you do should be among the lines to help yourself feel better.

Step Three: Start Your Engines 

Life is not supposed to be easy it seems. It may be easier being a little kid but I have come to notice that i would rather not be a little kid because they wouldn't know what is happening around them besides their little bubble of rainbows and unicorns. I guess that seems better though sometimes, doesn't it?

I am still struggling with things that cause me anxiety and l am trying to get past that brick wall... goals don't need a time limit (unless it is something like pay the bills then WAKE UP YOU NEED TO MAKE MONEY) and don't put too much pressure on yourself on that task.

The third step means to start fulfilling whatever your goal is.

I know this blog was not like my usual ones but again, I love sharing my thoughts and helping others.

Love always,

Zayniator

Listening to: Run by LANY

Appreciation For My Grandparents

You are a legend in my mind.

Hello my lovelies,

 Yesterday, it was World Mental Health Day so I think that it’s important to bring attention to this because your mental health is important. We all are having hard times.

You come first.

Always. 

I want to thank everyone for all the support on my last blog about suicide prevention and sharing it for others as well. My goal of helping people and making touching posts succeeded but it’s never 100% finished.

One of my many inspirations has a birthday today and I just want to share that I hope I’m doing my nanaw (great grandmother)  proud. Cherish your grandparents and great grandparents, even. They could be filled with lessons and stories to be remembered and passed on.

Importantly, memories to be made.

Be sure to fill your life with memories and experiences to share with your family later on when they ask about what you did at that certain time. It’s okay to not live an exciting life but don’t live a life with regrets either. You never know what the future holds.

Be thankful.

Today’s blog post is mostly to share that I’m grateful for my family and my grandparents. I love them.

Love always,

Zayniator

Listening to: Legend by twenty one pilots

Happy birthday, Nanaw.