Purpose + Dear You {Who Is Lost}

This week has been a week where I've questioned myself a lot lately about certain things. Plus a rain storm was in my mind one night and left me drowning in my thoughts. It's hard sometimes when you try to find things to raise your mood but ultimately, you just had to let the rain stop.

I remember when I was around fourteen and that seemed like a hard year for me. The storms were coming to me like I lived in Seattle, Washington or some place where it'd always rain.

I opened up to my dad one day about all the issues I had with myself because I just lost it that day. I even made him cry with things I said.

One question I remember asking him and I still question this: What's my purpose? My dad just simply said to be a teenager, which didn't satisfy me at all.

I've said this before but one of my favorite bands in the world is Twenty One Pilots. The lead singer named Tyler Joseph gave this advice about purpose that I haven't forgotten and probably won't forget: the beginning of purpose is finding something only you understand.

From this, Tyler created a song called "Kitchen Sink" where a kitchen sink to you isn't a kitchen sink to him. Something powerful happened at a kitchen sink that only he knows. That's his purpose.

I find my purpose in giving my feelings in this blog in hopes of gaining something back or even helping one person. I still struggle and deal with these negative emotions daily but I know there will be a sunny day.


Everyone has a purpose in this world.

Don't just sit back and decide that your worth isn't enough for this world because it is.

Find your purpose and remember the feeling of satisfaction from it.

You're powerful.

You're you.

Love always, Zayne.

Dear you who is feeling lost in this world, 

I know this feeling all too well. Life is a maze and sometimes you get into that corner of the maze where its too much to choose and to deal with the twist and turns of life. It's a wonder what you can do to see the peak of day, a better time. 

You'll find your path. 

Love always, 

Zayniator. 

Feelings

"All we do is think about the feelings we hide." -Halsey.

I have a theory about myself.

It's story time.

There's this friend I have that honestly knows me too well. One time they just knew something was wrong and I was stubborn to say how I felt or what was wrong.

Actually, this was more than once but anyways, they got frustrated and told me how they'll never judge me and asked why it was so hard for me to tell them how I felt.

I still remember to this day what I said because I love my metaphor I used and it's still true.

I have walls around myself and it takes time for me to let down those walls for someone; there's always a chance they'll make me regret it.

It is hard for me to tell someone how I feel.

Writing is a solution to this for me. Words have their way with me while sometimes I have a way with words.

The point of this is: Don't hold everything inside until you explode. This is a continuous struggle but I'm getting better.

This has been ramblings with Zayne.

One Word At A Time

As some of you noticed, last week was blogless for me. Today however.... isn't.

As some of you have seen, I had the honor of being interviewed and even being the cover of a magazine for my local town. I can't even describe how great it feels to spread positivity and let people know about Moebius and other things as well.

One of my favorite things is spreading positivity and motivation. Someone once told me that I should be a motivational speaker and I automatically thought: I can't talk in front of people.

That's how confident I am.

One of the main reasons why I do this blog is to reach out and help people while in the meantime letting my own feelings out so I won't be bottling up emotions. When I hear that I've helped someone with my blog or anything, I feel happy inside.

This isn't one of my deep down under posts but I just wanted to share about the magazine and about how much I appreciate everyone reading my blog posts.

Thank you and hope I get to see you lurking in my blog once again. ❤️️

Love always,

Zayniator.